Why's everything gotta be instantly turned into an issue of morality?

Honestly, not everything is that deep. Shaming the whole damn world ain't gonna make for a better world.

My best friend offered to host a baby shower for me. I actually feel guilty about that because I was working too much to do the same for her when she had her baby a few years ago. I have a sense of fairness that irritates people like it's a character flaw. I know the world isn't fair, but I don't see why I shouldn't try to be.

Um, so anyway, now with the coronavirus, I feel like having a baby shower would be seen as immoral even though it wouldn't be a large group and there wouldn't be anyone over 60 or immunocompromised there. And that got me thinking about how a lot of young queer folks don't interact with people over 60, so may well be judged for living life as normal, when the circumstances for that were caused by past global and personal crises.

I know people will judge anyone for anything. I don't. That's an actual ethics fuck, passing judgment to people whose circumstances you know nothing about.

What am I abouting talk

I totally see patterns and I'm also totally aware of the power of outliers to alter patterns.

I also totally feel like an idiot that's lived too long to still be as dumb as I am, saying big words and not even saying big enough words.

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No baby shower. My friend's state is in lock down and her job gave her a travel ban. Her state is one state over from mine, was affected after my state, and somehow it's in a lot worse shape. The articles from the two places are in a lot of respects opposites. I'm on the border of two different states, one of which I travel to for work daily. My job made sure to know my commute is required while her job won't let her leave.

Perspective is relative and judgments of any kind are made on assumptions that every situation is the same. They're obviously not.

Now, it's quite possible that my job cares less if I die. That's completely stupid if so, because they're on a skeleton crew as it is. That's stupid even from a heartless economic standpoint. But I'm young and fairly healthy. I'm afraid of medical waiting rooms in the city, not driving my reverse commute to bumfuck nowhere. If this weren't my first child and if I were less anxious, I might not go to the doctor until and unless things calm down.

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Someday I'm (we're) giving these kids non-birthday celebration of life parties. They'll appreciate those more than baby showers, anyway, because they'll be able to process them.

People get degrees to do this?

I hate the way opinion pieces that people get paid for are written these days.

They're like "I'm a big mean buttface and I love it because one time I got sad when I wasn't doing a big mean buttface thing and I had a REVELATION from SOMEONE AT A BAR who said REAL WOMEN are MEAN so then I dumped all my friends and brought germs to my dying elderly mother and now I have the best new friends ever who all hate me!!!!! Yay!!!!!!!"

I could make up stuff like that and get paid for it. 😆 It's hilariously stupid, but also sad and terrible.

I hope I enjoy blogging here enough to not have time to read what's really nothing less than toxic bullshit.

I'm sure I won't always be throwing out a million thoughts per day

This is just my awkward new person phase on this platform.

I hope you do take the more absurd things I say in the intended lighthearted manner.

Suffer with me

So, recently I was rewatching Breaking Bad at the same time I was more slowly watching the last season of the Tangled series while it was airing. If there's a mood for something that is the opposite of whiplash and gives the same affect, I felt it.

You can't tell me this song doesn't sound like a combination of Jesse and Walt plus a gender swapped Skyler and Walt. Obviously, Tangled is a kids' show and both more blatant and forgiving than the Breaking Bad universe, but I can't unhear it. It fits more and more until the ending of the song is all too familiar to what happened to Jesse (and Walt) near the end of Breaking Bad.

https://youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=Kvj4maFyQcs

(The link works. How do you embed songs from a phone?)

This song could be featured in a BB fan music video. Maybe edit the voices, but regardless, I can see what the scene choices would be and it's incredibly emotional.